its quiet. i hate quiet times during deployments. they mean i actually have to think! why in the world would i want to think at a time like this? it makes me dwell on Jason being gone. yeah, I'm whining. I'm just tired of it being so quiet.
Deployments are hard. No fucking duh, right? Well i knew it would suck, i expected it to but I'm allowed to bitch. I'm good at bitching so why not use it when i can? Honestly, i am tired. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of the quiet. I'm tired of deployments. I'm tired of being the only who wipes tears and butts lol. i need my other half. its easier going through the day, dealing with fits and tantrums(two separate things thank you), changing butts, cleaning, cooking and all my other housewife things, when i know he will be home at the end of the day. I don't get to relax. I need a glass, hell, a BOTTLE of wine.
I want to scream. not because i dont want to take care of my children or my home but i want to sleep in or maybe take a nap. ohhhhhh not having to get up in the middle of the night would be nice. yeah, ill take a kid free night please, with a side of sleep in til noon. That would rock.
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